Tuesday, March 29, 2005

這位耶穌對我挑戰

我激怒時,他告訴我:寬恕!
我恐懼時,他告訴我:要勇敢!
我懷疑時,他對我說:要相信!
我焦慮時,他對我說:要冷靜!
我喜歡走我自己的路,他告訴我:來,跟隨我!
我做我自己的計畫,他告訴我:忘記它們!
我趨向物質的財富,他說:和它們背道而馳!
我想要安全感,他說:我絕不給你任何許諾!
我喜歡過我自己的生活,他說:失去你的生活!
我相信我是好的,他告訴我:好是不夠的!
我喜歡成為老闆,他說:服務!
我喜歡命令別人,他說:服從!
我喜歡了解,他說:相信!
我喜歡清楚明白,他用比喻對我說話!
我喜歡詩意,他用真實對我說話!
我喜歡寧靜,他喜歡我被打擾!
我喜歡激動,他說:願你平安!
我拔出刀劍,他說:放下它!
我想報復,他說:把另一邊面頰轉過來!
我談到秩序井然,他說:我已帶來刀劍!
我選擇憎恨,他說:愛你的仇敵!
我要播種融洽,他說:我來是為把火投在地上!
我喜歡成為最大的,他說:要學習像小孩子那樣小!
我喜歡隱藏,他說:要讓你的光照耀!
我注視最好的位置,他說:坐到末位去!
我喜歡被人注意,他說:拴上門在你的內室祈禱!
不,我不認識這位耶穌。
他挑動我。他使我困惑。
他的誡命太多,我寧可去跟隨另一位更明確並且要求少的師傅。
但我經驗到的幾乎和伯鐸一樣:「我不知除你以外,還有誰永生的話。」

巴西 SCJ會士Pe.Zezinho

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Good communication

Good communication begins with conveying what's the obvious. For one thing, the obvious to the speaker may not be so to the others and hence avoiding confusion. Secondly, it establishes a fundation for further discussion, which helps to identify the differences in opinions. Most of the time I jump to what I think is the key of the matter, skipping what I assume is the agreed common ground.

The ability to go down to the root of the matter is a very important skill, if not the most important one. Next to that is the ability to provide a bird's eye view of the entire situation. Both requires a very sharp mind.

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Taiwan

Let's do the numbers.







TaiwanChinaCaliforniaL.A. CountyIsrael
Area (miles^2)13,8923,705,386163,7074,0848,019
Population (Mil)22.71,298.833.93.66.2

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

The thick wall

Many times in life I feel I'm in front of a thick wall. There's no way around it and I have to somehow get through it. The situation reminds me of the graduate school days when I made no progress in my research project for weeks. Pressured by time and commitments, frustrated by the complexity or difficulties of the problems, I'd feel ashamed and discouraged.

Sometimes I wish I can find a crack in the wall and use a sharp tool to make it bigger so the wall would crumble; sometimes I feel I need a strong and powerful drill to penetrate and make a breakthrough (the image of a coal mine worker in the narrow and obsure underground tunnel). At other times I feel I just need to have the persistence to push the wall and move it a little bit each day (especially with people, where hard methods wouldn't work so well), and eventually it'll tip over and fall on its own weight.

Most of the time I feel I lack those tools or the character. And I wander around. I waste time on browsing the web or entering mindless blogs (writing and editing it). I don't talk to other people in those situations (why bother others).

Exercise is a way to help me in the long run. I think if I'd swim or play balls then my focus and attention would restore over time.

Vision is the sharp tool; focus and sustained attention are the drill head that is made of diamond, which would cut through any hard problems.

It's all in the mind.

A clear mind, a sharp vision, a strong will and resilience. Those are the four foundation characters I believe I need to overcome the walls and roadblocks on my way. On top of that, I just need the wisdom to know which one is the best way.